Okay, no. Just no. Seriously. Why can no one see what kind of a shit person she is until she bites you in the goddamn ass?! She been kicked out of so many cliques, and her hobby of late is tearing friendships apart. It really pisses me off.
So sorry to start of like this, but I'll explain now. There's this girl who's in my class. Let's call her T and we're acquaintances of sorts. Okay, scratch that. We can maintain a civil conversation for 3 minutes before I walk off, completely uninterested. She's really not the nicest person. Then again, I have double standards. Anyway, one of my friends (known as L), I would say, is close-ish to her. Our exams are almost ending, with tomorrow being the last day and my clique wanted to go out together (L's in my clique). But L said that T also asked her to go out with her and her friends (some of our other classmates), and L told us that she didn't want T to be hating on us, so she's gonna go with her instead tomorrow.
I call not just bullshit, but fucking bullshit. I'm sorry but seriously? (Okay, not sorry. Just throwing the word around.) You just told us you're going to go out with T. Okay, big deal. Really, you could come up with better lies. "I don't want T to hate y'all"? Fuck the hell off! You think we really care if T hates on us? We are literally the chillest group of people you could ever meet. Hate me? Okay. Like me? That's great, let's be friends if you aren't a bitch to everyone else. We couldn't give two shits if she hated us. Half of us aren't even in her fucking class (no really. Out of eight of us, only L and three of us are in T's class). And I'm not trying to blow my own trumpet, I'm just going to state the truth. I'm not exactly the best person to cross and I've established my reputation of being a "No, I don't care. No, fuck off. No seriously. Fuck off." person who isn't exactly the nicest person to be around most of the time. It's a miracle I'm even in a clique.
And I know for a fact that T does not dare to cross me. I think she's either heard stories about me or I've done something to make her feel that way (see I don't even remember. I'm just mean to everyone). So if T's gonna be hating on my clique and me, go ahead. Half of us don't care, and the other half is protected by me. T's just a fucking bully and I'm not about to let her mess with my friends. In the first place, how realistic is this? For one person to hate on eight other people just because one of them chose the other seven over her? I don't see the logic.
Still, I wouldn't put it past T to do that. That's the kind of person she is. If she can't gain anything off you, she'll just be a mean bitch to you. Like, she won't even get to know you properly before deciding that she doesn't like you. She's got the whole Princess Syndrome thing going for her. Basically, it's that she can treat you like shit, but you can't treat her the same way. She's got the whole double standards thing going as well (I do too. Just by saying this, it's a double standard). For one, because my class sits with our tables paired together (so two people sit together), she'll bite your head off if your belongings (such as stationery) is even a millimeter on her table. But, she can place her entire arm on your desk while she works because fuck everyone, she's the queen.
Second, she swears like a fucking sailor who's just gone through a shitty day. (See, double standards.) Okay. I don't know why exactly I swear. Habit. And rising emotions. I have a lot of angst. I'm a teenager. Not an excuse, but whatever. But this bitch. This bitch swears because she thinks it's cool and that people will think she's cool because she swears. I am sorry (okay, no I'm not) but no. Just no. I don't think it's cool to swear. I don't do it to impress people. I'm trying to get rid of it. But the world just pisses me off. So yes. I swear. T swears because the sun is shining and because she is breathing. She's really loud about it too. She goes around shouting, "Eh, fucker, come here lah!" That kind of shit? Like sorry, but at least swear more delicately? You sound like a bloody ah lian! (Singaporean slang, Singlish all over the place, it's Singapore. What did you expect?) She uses swear terms that almost only Singaporeans use, so I'm not going to put them here. Anyway, you get the gist.
Third, she's left some of my friends with huge self-esteem issues. Maybe it's in their personalities to begin with, but it's just made worse by her. My table partner cannot stop doubting her self-worth just because T had an intense dislike for her. Just because one person was mean to her. I mean, yes, it's just one person, but that one person had a profound effect and that's enough for me to really really dislike her (even if I didn't know about her other extremely jarring flaws, but I do) because that was enough to leave that gaping hole in my friend's self-esteem. She doesn't even know what she did to T! (Although we did kinda work that out and she's okay with T now but they won't ever be more than acquaintances no matter how much T sucks up to her now. I'm so glad she can see that T isn't someone she needs in her life)
Which brings me to my next point. She sucks up SO. MUCH. She is literally the most fake person I've ever come across. She really hated one of my friends because that friend was really popular and rose up the social ladder really quickly (mainly because she's really smart). But then they had to work together in a group and she realised that that friend was actually a really good asset to have on hand and has been sucking up to her ever since. For example, she would comment like "omg ur so pretty" and like "face goals" and shit like that on her Instagram and my friend actually buys that shit. She's easily influenced and she's just soaking up the attention she's receiving. I don't really blame her for it; we're all at that age when attention and popularity is "everything", but I just don't condone it. You get all these T type people just trying to get in your good books so that when you finally succeed, they can say that "Oh, I was her friend and I know her very well" and shit like that. Fuck off, seriously. Fuck. Off.
Finally, she's created just this huge ass mess out of my other acquaintance-friend that I have (let's call her S because she's the star of this show). So T was friends with this person last year, and they then started hanging out with S and her friend (aka Y). It was the four of them for quite a while, but S and Y never really liked T. Mainly because of various reasons. That doesn't really matter. They were together for really quite some time (like, from last year till slightly before July or August or something. Not sure about the details). But then T's friend got "stolen away" by another classmate and she stopped hang out with them. This left T without someone she was really close to. So she got close to S and started telling her to stop hanging out with Y. For some stupid reason, S did. Relationship between those two soured, of course. And whaddya know, T then ditched S and went with Y instead. With those two's bad relationship now (well it's actually fluctuating, but more on the bad side), it was easy for T to latch onto Y and worsen the relationship further.
So now, S is left without a clique because she's just been kicked out of her own. She didn't really make very close friends with our other classmates because of course, no one expects this is happen to them. So S is really kind of... alone right now. No one really close to, or to hang with, you know? Okay, S isn't the most sensitive person and that's why I wouldn't really call myself a friend (because I see that she can sometimes treat people like shit without actually realising it), but more like someone who's friendly to her and I'll give her the support she needs until this mess is cleared up. Still, it angers me. It angers me because T doesn't even treat S like a person. No one deserves to be treated like that. And I bet T doesn't even care. She just sees S as collateral damage, or perhaps just a fly that's now out of her face. She doesn't even see what she's doing. And that really pisses me off. I won't say I know S very well, and she can be mean sometimes, but seriously, no one is as bad as T. It's been distracting to S, having to deal with this shit during the exam period. I can only hope it doesn't affect her too much, because T shouldn't matter. T shouldn't matter to anyone and she should be given one big bitch slap to be woken up.
She's a bully. I can't say that I'm not totally, but this is fucked up. T may have grown up in a single parent family, but fuck that. I was best friends with someone whose parents were divorced as well and she wasn't anywhere close to as big of a bitch as T. She wasn't a bitch at all! So it's not an excuse at all. I hate that L is friends with her and I really don't see why people befriend T but far be it for me to see the good qualities of T and I'm sorry but I'm not even going to try. (I'm also not going to be that person who opposes two people's friendship just because I don't like one of them.) I'm sorry this post has been so long and thank you so much for reading it (if you still are) though it's basically just me ranting about T.
Live well, Love much, Laugh often!
-Midnight Flint
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