Beginning of the End

It's been a while since I posted! So here's one right now!

Anyway, the year's coming to an end, and a lot has happened this year. I got a new class, learnt new stuff in my classes, worked with new people, took over my CCA with my other squadmates, been busy as hell, missed my junior years like crazy, struggled like crap with exams and all that, passed my Chinese exam after three bloody years, planned and executed lessons and camps, started this blog, travelled to two countries within a month, and started Ghost.

It's been a busy year, definitely. The start of next year is gonna be killer as well. I'm supposed to lead a team from my CCA into a competition, and it's quite a bit of pressure here. The number of people we're allowed to enter has been cut down, and it's ridiculous. I don't really know how I'm going to go about doing this nonsense. I'm really hoping April will come along soon, when I can step down and focus on my studies and my "side projects".

Being in the IP stream, I don't actually have to take 'O'-Levels, only for Chinese. Which is my weakest subject. WHY. I'm gearing up for the new year, really. I'm gonna tidy up my desk and under my table, and keep it that why for the rest of the year. I'm gonna keep myself fit, even if I don't really slim down. I want to be healthy, and I want to do well in school.

Of course, we always have that one person in class that doesn't hand up homework and doesn't mind owing a single piece of homework for an entire year. I'm that person. And I don't want to be that person anymore. It's annoying, having to run from your teachers, despite knowing that you'll meet them in class anyway. I don't want them to be breathing down my neck anymore, and I don't want to drop any further than I already have. I'd describe myself as the bottom of the bottom, if anything. And it feels horrible. I want to score well. I don't want to have to take up Chinese in JC, when I can be using the time to do other things.

To be honest, I've been investing more time and effort into my CCA than anything else these past three years. Nothing else seemed to matter. One of the reasons was because I excel in my CCA. I'm not trying to brag or anything, but I am best at my CCA. If you think about in another way, that's pretty fucking pathetic. Who cares if you're good at your CCA if you can't score well in exams and stuff? No one's going to be like, "Oh hey, she does well in her CCA. Let's take her in." No, it doesn't work that way. It's all about how many As you can get and how hard you work to keep it that way.

I'm not trying to say that CCA isn't important. It just isn't as important. Really, I've always known that, but it didn't stop me from putting a crazy amount of energy into that. It was my biggest mistake, but also my best choice. I don't really regret. I never have, and I never will. Why? Because if I didn't put my time and effort into my CCA, then I would have absolutely no achievements at all. I'd be bad at my CCA as well as my studies. I know myself. I would still not have studied back then. It didn't seem to matter.

Now I see it. How important it actually is. Which is why I'm going to change. It's no longer "trying to change". "I fight not because I think I can win, but because I have to." There's no point in doing something if you don't resolve to see it to the end. I'm going to see it to the end. This blog is slightly over 6 months old. A little bit of an achievement, if you ask me. And I'm going to keep doing this blogging thing for as long as I can. It's gonna be my thing, and I'm gonna see it to the end.

Ghost as well. I missed the last update because I was overseas. But I'm going to stick to the "every Saturday"-updates and I'm going to finish this book. It's a promise I'm making to myself, as well as all my readers. I'm sick and tired of incomplete stuff. I never really finish what I start. No more. I'm going to do this right this time. It's time to start tying up the loose ends, make up for the shortfall.

I hope y'all have some kind of goal of your own that you wish to achieve as well! It makes life exciting, no? Even if you don't have any goals (which I didn't for my entire life), please watch as I achieve mine! Alright, this is it for now! Live well, Love much, Laugh often!

-Midnight Flint

I'm Back!

Hey hey! I'm back from my Taipei trip! It was so much fun while it lasted. I got back on Tuesday, and it's already Thursday. Time sure flies.

I don't think I'm going to blog much about the trip, but it was really awesome. Certain things were more than slightly unpleasant, but they don't matter much. It's good to be back in Singapore. The weather is pretty freaking terrible, but it wasn't much better in the first few days in Taipei either. It was so warm and uncomfortable, and then suddenly it was freezing.

It's almost always sunny in Singapore, except with the occasional downpours these few weeks. I swear, I put on sooooo much weight during the trip. It was basically all good food and then no exercise. Well, technically, we walked a lot, but I think we ate more. And the food was definitely far from healthy. Not that I really care much. Just moderate how you eat and it isn't so bad.

I bought lots of stuff this trip! I would like to post what I got, but some of it are clothes, and they're currently in the wash, so I can't do that. I spent a lot! Hahahahaha I would say I'm from a rather well-to-do family, at least we get by. Even if we aren't really, then my parents are just generous. I do try to control my spending, of course. I don't just splurge and splurge. It's unhealthy, and it's disrespectful to the hard work my parents put in to get that cash, as well as disrespectful to the cash.

It seems weird to think of it as disrespecting cash, but if you don't respect the money you have, you will have no qualms about spending. And with that, you're going to run out of cash easily. Besides, you earned that money. Why are you disregarding the hard work you put in just to momentarily satisfy yourself? It's time to think twice, all you spendthrifts!

So, if any of you still remember, I'm on a quest to slim the heck down. Well, I'm working on it. So far, this holiday, I've only run like three times, with the last one being yesterday. I ran a total of 4km but I took reaaaaaally long oops. But hey! Better than nothing! It's time to work off all the fat and unhealthiness accumulated during this holiday. I'm getting my mum to control how much I eat, especially when it's buffet and hotpot kind of meals. You gotta start somewhere, right? So exercise and controlling my diet is where I'm going to start. And I hope to end with a flat stomach even when I sit. I heard planking works. But I'm not sure.

Also, my new story, Ghost, is out! I'm really happy that I managed to post again. It's a lot of fun writing and putting it out for the world to see. I've actually finished writing four chapters, and I'm working on chapter 5 at the moment. I'm doing my own editing as well, so posting is taking a while. Only two chapters are out, and I don't plan to rush my uploading, since I can't write as fast. I just posted Chapter 2 today, so perhaps I'll wait for a week or so before the next post. I'm thinking to post every Saturday, but I'm not too sure yet.

It seems I'm not sure of a lot of stuff! Hahaha But one thing I know is that I really enjoy writing, and I'm really grateful to all you people who read the nonsense I post. (Yes, I know I have readers. Thank you, by the way ;) ) Comments are always welcome, even if y'all don't actually comment on anything. But still, thank you for the silent support!

Alright! If you wanna catch more of me (for any reason...), you can find me on Wattpad (I don't upload my stories anywhere else) or on Twitter, at Midnight4821 and @FlintStars respectively. (Or here! :D ) Live well, Love much, Laugh often!

-Midnight Flint